Update

I've not been able to post lately.  Partly due to life, partly due to avoidance.

I have a new job.  That is, I've accepted a position in my library's administration office on a half time basis through May, but I'm still overseeing my branch library on a half time basis as well.  So, I am on a huge learning curve, splitting my time between two jobs and doing neither very well.  But the temporary position may very well lead to a permanent position that I've been working towards for many years now.

My wife continues to improve, and I find myself crashing because of it.  For the last 5 months, I've needed to be rather vigilant in her care.  Now that this chapter is closing, I am having to redefine my role again.  This is not a bad thing, but even good change can leave me stressed and lost.

I am not following any of my plans.  But I do not see this as a backslide.  It is a moment of my life where I have decided to make other things a focus in my life.  I am mindful of what I eat and I note when I am overeating, but I'm not as careful as I could be.  I do use my hard earned skills at regulating emotional eating when I am aware, but for now it is far simpler to eat what everyone else is eating.  And with our current income, that means some protein, veggies and a lot of pasta.

I am exhausted but excited as well.  I am doing my best to keep it together.  For now, that is all I can do.