Actually, I did very well (I think) this year on Thanksgiving. Loaded up on the protein, stopped before I was gorged, and did very little snacking. Really. Even despite the bowl of chips and homemade French onion dip. I'm not a big dessert man so that wasn't even a temptation. Aunt Wanda's turkey gravy on the other hand....
Upon returning home from my cousin's house, however, all bets were off. I just continued where I left off mired in my darkened inner self.
Depression is an awful beast. Knowing I'm depressed doesn't make it any easier. It feeds itself as it speaks to the inner loathing I have for my food weakness. And it got a double whammy on me as I ran across an old evaluation I recieved in college that was quite harsh. I'm 40 years old, and that damn document can still peg every insecurity I had in school. Yeah, I should get rid of it. But its one of those things that has a lot of praise in it as well. When I read it in a better mind space, it puts me on cloud 9. I'm pretty screwed up, ain't I?
It seems like this time of year is bad for all of us fat people. My blog has been about recommitting and finding my motivation again! There are many other blogs out there who are doing the same! Grab that horse as hard as you can and cling on for dear life!
ReplyDeleteGreetings from one Clyde to another! I saw that you started following my site and I am happy to follow yours too.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear that you are down in the dumps, but you know, it is temporary.
In cycling, when you are lagging energy or motivation, another cyclist can come along and "pull" the lagging cyclist. Maybe we can do that for each other this week. I am just starting a structured running program this week, but I am doing it on my own and unsure as to how I will do. Why don't we "pull" each other this week?
My first run must be done by tomorrow night. 2.5 miles. Will you do it too? More will follow.
Contact me at bigclydesdale@gmail.com if this could work for you this week.
I try to disconnect from my past and just live in the NOW - when feeling down.
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ReplyDelete@Jess this really is a hard time to recommit, but I'm doing my best
@Kara living in the now is among the hardest things for me to do, but the rewards are sooooo bountiful when I can keep at it. Thanks.